I’m embarrassed to admit this, but my biggest fear used to be gaining weight. No, really, if you would’ve asked me 3 years ago what I was most scared of, I wouldn’t say sharks or losing a family member… I’d say “getting fat.” I always thought that being ‘thinner’ or ‘fitter’ was the only thing that’d make me happy and I NEVER thought it was possible to gain 45 pounds, stop dieting forever, and actually be confident in my body. But then the universe decided to teach me a lesson. In the summer of 2016 I gained 45 pounds in just 2 very emotional months. Every day looked like this:
- Wake up, look in the mirror, cry.
- Talk myself out of taking a fat burner and doing fasted cardio, cry some more.
- Get dressed for work and have another breakdown because none of my clothes fit me. I was a personal trainer then so I’d wear yoga pants and T-shirts and hope my clients didn’t notice my weight gain.
- Drive to the store after work and get binge food.
- Binge eat on cereal, cookies, trail mix, ice cream, and anything else I could find.
- Call my mom and tell her I’m ’okay’ before falling asleep into a food coma.
- The weight gained in high school was necessary for your hormonal development as you transitioned into womanhood.
- The extra pounds from college came with those crazy how-did-I-even-survive-that-night type of memories and the late-night study sessions that were accompanied by pizza, friends, laughs, and education.
- The weight gained during pregnancy was followed by birthing a beautiful MIRACLE into this world. Please don’t disregard the amazingness your body is capable of!!!
Repeat after me: It’s natural and normal for my body to change. It’s natural and normal for my body to change. It’s natural and normal for my body to change.5. I focused on my education. I decided I’d rather be smart than skinny because that’s what I would encourage my little sister or future daughter to be. 6. I focused on everything else I GAINED besides weight… relationships, adventures, memories, experiences, and a new-found love for wine… All the things I deprived myself of out of fear of “getting fat.” There’s more to life than having the “perfect body” but you won’t realize it until you let go of that expectation. Instead of trying to get your old body back, I invite you to focus on the new, more-evolved version of YOU and let your current body peacefully accompany who you are NOW. And to deepen your self-love and confidence journey, I created this 5-day workbook for you: In this guide, you’ll go through deep questions, journal prompts, and self-reflection exercises to overcome comparison, silence your inner critic, and become confident in your body (whether you gained weight or not). Get it here for only $5. I promise that when taken seriously, it’ll be a game-changer.