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Hi! I’m Mary,

I’m a writer, speaker, and host of worldwide women’s self-love retreats.

Hi! I’m Mary,

I’m a writer, speaker, and host of worldwide women’s self-love retreats.

I’m your guiding force on this self-love journey.

It’s my goal to help you be confident in your body and love yourself unconditionally. We have all these unrealistic expectations of ourselves – how we “should” look, what we “should” be eating to look like that, who we “should” be…

But I’m here to tell you that self-love is more powerful than any diet or exercise plan.

I used to be one of 96% of women who was unhappy with my appearance so I’d spend endless endless time, energy, and money on diet plans and exercise programs that encouraged restriction and forbid freedom.

At the time, I thought it was worth it because everyone and their mom (literally!) were telling me that losing weight and being thin, fit and pretty was #goals

 

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After running my body, mind and spirit to the ground trying to achieve unrealistic beauty standards, I recovered from my eating disorder of 7 years and find healing from within.

 

Now, I travel to beautiful places hosting my self-love retreats, eat yummy foods without an ounce of guilt, and share my heart with you through my writings, videos and online programs knowing that you too can feel confident your body and love yourself unconditionally.

In a nutshell…

In a nutshell…

After running my body, mind and spirit to the ground trying to achieve unrealistic beauty standards, I recovered from my eating disorder of 7 years and find healing from within.

 

Now, I travel to beautiful places hosting my self-love retreats, eat yummy foods without an ounce of guilt, and share my heart with you through my writings, videos and online programs knowing that you too can feel confident your body and love yourself unconditionally.

MY STORY

From a young age I was unhappy with body. I suffered from bulimia since age 11 but never knew how sick I was because everyone around me was always dieting and concerned about what their bodies looked like.

At 16, I jumped into bikini competitions thinking that competing would control my behaviors and I’d finally have the “perfect body.”

I became OBSESSED with everything “fitness”. I worked out multiple times a day and was starving myself each day in an attempt to stay “thin”. What I thought would “fix” me only damaged me more than I already felt.

I thought the key to happiness was to achieve a very specific “look”: thin, fit & pretty.

After my second competition, things took off. I was a paid fitness model, traveling to fitness expos and got sooo much attention for my “perfect body” but then there was another demon inside me.

Binge eating.

At first, it was easy to suppress it, sign up for another show for “accountability” and “make up for” the damage done by eating less and exercising more the day after a binge.

But one day, I could no longer silence my body screaming, “STOP DOING THIS TO YOURSELF” any longer.

 

MY STORY

From a young age I was unhappy with body. I suffered from bulimia since age 11 but never knew how sick I was because everyone around me was always dieting and concerned about what their bodies looked like.

At 16, I jumped into bikini competitions thinking that competing would control my behaviors and I’d finally have the “perfect body.”

I became OBSESSED with everything “fitness”. I worked out multiple times a day and was starving myself each day in an attempt to stay “thin”. What I thought would “fix” me only damaged me more than I already felt.

I thought the key to happiness was to achieve a very specific “look”: thin, fit & pretty.

After my second competition, things took off. I was a paid fitness model, traveling to fitness expos and got sooo much attention for my “perfect body” but then there was another demon inside me.

Binge eating.

At first, it was easy to suppress it, sign up for another show for “accountability” and “make up for” the damage done by eating less and exercising more the day after a binge.

But one day, I could no longer silence my body screaming, “STOP DOING THIS TO YOURSELF.”

But one day I could no longer silence my body screaming, “STOP DOING THIS TO YOURSELF.”

But one day I could no longer silence my body screaming, “STOP DOING THIS TO YOURSELF.”

I hit my all-time low at my lowest weight, lying on my kitchen floor bawling my eyes out over a tub of ice cream, box of cereal and jar of peanut butter thinking, “What is wrong with me?”

Since I wasn’t continuing the binge/purge/restrict behavior from my competition days and every day of recovery looked like this:

  1. Wake up, look in the mirror, cry.
  2. Talk myself out of skipping breakfast and doing fasted cardio, cry some more.
  3. Get dressed for work and have another breakdown because none of my clothes fit me.
  4. Drive to the store after work and get binge food.
  5. Binge eat on cereal, cookies, trail mix, ice cream, and anything else I could find.
  6. Call my mom and tell her I’m ’okay’ before falling asleep from a food coma.

If only I knew then that nothing was actually wrong with me… That my body was just malnourished, exhausted and begging me to treat it nicely.

 

In 2016, I moved to Canada and spent the next 2 years soul searchin’ to find peace, love, and acceptance with myself.

Quitting competitions and moving to Canada were HUGE turning points in my life. Both have been the hardest, yet the most healing, times of my life.

On January 1, 2017 I published my first blog post sharing my eating disorder recovery journey.  From there soooo many women came forward and said “OMG, me too!!” Finally, I didn’t feel so alone anymore.

 

After a very long personal journey of exploration and growth, I began guiding others in their own self-love and confidence journeys.

 

THE TURNING POINT

Canada wasn’t my “happily ever after”, it was just the beginning of my healing, but I still craved more. So I took another risk. I booked a ticket to Bali.

 

Two weeks, and new Delta credit card, later, I was with one of my best girlfriends looking out into the beautiful Indian Ocean breathing in the magical Balinese air.

 

It’s crazy what happens when you take a leap of faith and just do something for yourself. Everything begins to unfold because your subconscious, the Universe, God, angels and everything else ethereal begins to work in your favor.

I remember sitting on the beach in Bali and not feeling the slightest bit ashamed of my “bikini body” thinking wow, every woman needs to experience this overwhelming (self) love I’m feeling now.

 

I felt the most at peace with my body, with my past, and with my life on that beautiful summer day in Bali and now, I help other women find that unconditional self-love through my worldwide retreats.

Retreats

Self-Love

Now, I host retreats around the world so that you, too, can experience a self-lovin’ transformation.

 

Join me and other beautiful, supportive, loving women in this self-love journey…

 

Self-Love Retreats

 

Now, I host retreats around the world so that you, too, can experience a self-lovin’ transformation.

 

Join me and other beautiful, supportive, loving women in this self-love journey…

 

 

MY WISH FOR YOU

Could you relate to any of my story? If so, I hope it gave you hope – more hope than you’ve ever felt before because I PROMISE that it’s possible to feel comfortable in your body and love yourself unconditionally without going on another diet, detox or exercise regimen.

It just takes someone to believe in you, to guide you and to show you that you are worthy of so much MORE than you’ve been giving yourself so I made it my personal mission to help you be confident in your body and love yourself unconditionally.

MY WISH FOR YOU

Could you relate to any of my story? If so, I hope it gave you hope – more hope than you’ve ever felt before because I PROMISE that it’s possible to feel comfortable in your body and love yourself unconditionally without going on another diet, detox or exercise regimen.

It just takes someone to believe in you, to guide you and to show you that you are worthy of so much MORE than you’ve been giving yourself so I made it my personal mission to help you be confident in your body and love yourself unconditionally.

You are worthy of so much MORE than you’ve been giving yourself.

FUN FACTS ABOUT MARY:

FUN FACTS ABOUT MARY:

1) I loooove people! No seriously, I’m the most extroverted extrovert which means I get energized from being around people! Most of my time is spent sitting in the busiest cafe I can find, having good conversations with my close ones, and helping anyone anyway I can.

2) I am a TALKER! Besides being a super extroverted people person, I  speak at events and conferences. There’s nothing like using your voice to spread an empowering message.

3) I wear dresses that are probably a smidge too short for me but I looove the feeling of freedom on my legs!

4) My first language is Russian so in pre-school I barely knew English. When me and the other kids played “House” they’d make me be the dog because all I’d have to say is “woof” BUUUT in Russian, dogs say «гаф» (pronounced “gaff”) so then the kids started making fun of me and telling me I couldn’t even speak dog! Poor, Little Mary!

5) I love traveling and learning more from the cultures and places I visit. Fav place so far has been Bali, but next on the list to visit are Tokyo, Peru, and India!

6) My little sister, Ilana, is my everything. Even though she’s 10 years younger than me, she was the person who taught me how to love when I was struggling to love myself.

1) I loooove people! No seriously, I’m the most extroverted extrovert which means I get energized from being around people! Most of my time is spent sitting in the busiest cafe I can find, having good conversations with my close ones, and helping anyone anyway I can.

2) I am a TALKER! Besides being a super extroverted people person, I  speak at events and conferences. There’s nothing like using your voice to spread an empowering message.

3) I wear dresses that are probably a smidge too short for me but I looove the feeling of freedom on my legs!

4) My first language is Russian so in pre-school I barely knew English. When me and the other kids played “House” they’d make me be the dog because all I’d have to say is “woof” BUUUT in Russian, dogs say «гаф» (pronounced “gaff”) so then the kids started making fun of me and telling me I couldn’t even speak dog! Poor, Little Mary!

5) I love traveling and learning more from the cultures and places I visit. Fav place so far has been Bali, but next on the list to visit are Tokyo, Peru, and India!

6) My little sister, Ilana, is my everything. Even though she’s 10 years younger than me, she was the person who taught me how to love when I was struggling to love myself.

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